Before I used to meet up with friends alot, atleast once everyweek. We can talk anything under the sky. We share our life, happiness and problems.

Nowadays, due to work and commitments, I met up with my friends once a month or atmost twice a month. For the past 2-3 years, alot of things happened. Transition from entering NS, to a relationship, to marriage and now to working life. All these, happened within the last 2-3 years. If you ask me how am I getting on ? Honestly, I will tell you that I'm struggling and confused but I have not regret.

To me, once I made a decision, I will not regret. Even if problems arise due to my decision or mine decision is not a good one, I will not regret. Instead, I prefer to look forward and see how can I work things out.

Sometime I just feel worn out or tired or I even ask God why can't have a normal life, but God reminded me. I may have struggles and in situation that seems to drag on and I felt that I can't take it anymore or I felt that God isn't there for me anymore, but God reminded me. He reminded me....."hey i'm still standing, I'm still surviving, I have not fall down yet." God's grace is sufficient for us. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV)

Still somethimes I felt that I'm the black sheep of His great family. I'm still cling so much to the world.

I have lots of dreams, wishes and prayer. Sometimes I dun even pray in my heart about them, but God knows and He answered.

Sometimes I just want to hack care everything. Not everyone had seen what I mean by really hack care everything and I do not want to go to that stage. I'm just confused......I'm at the Cross Road of Life.

** Let me Thank in advance for anyone who read up to this line. I felt better after writting all these, although it's not the full story that is in my heart.